June 10th, 2023 Cinquain
You are my first thought in the morning and last throughout my sleepless nights.
It’s not the familiarity It’s not the loneliness It’s not the memories It’s not the safety It’s not the comfortability
I cut this final cord. So why do I still feel bound? Oh, another cord.
A sudden Good-Bye Is not a finality But a paused Hello
What I do Was for you Now it’s me Found self love But I still
This noose of hope Around my neck A memory rope Myself I wreck I cannot leave
Help me to understand it Help open up my eyes I’m trying to move past it But I can’t seem to see why When we’re together
Do not mistake my silence, For absence. I will always be there for you. Always. But I must be here for myself,
Rest your head on my shoulder When you’re feeling tired Let me sing of your praises When you need to be inspired Bend my ear to your lips
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
Adrift in the abyss Dappled with distant lights Imagination connects the dots To make sense of this predicament I was anchored on the satellite
As the waves crash along the shore Which seems so far away, I ask myself; Why do I swim? Pushed from a ship
What I mistook for your warmth I now realize was actually a freez… You found me, built me up Then destroyed me You claim to care about me
With words left unspoken These promises broken Are washed away by These emotions awoken Forgive the sinner
It’s easy to tell someone, “Just move on”, When you weren’t the one In their shoes. It’s easy to tell someone,
I mourn not for what we had, I mourn for a future lost. A foundation laid of promises, Promises that now seem so easily b… I cry not for this loneliness,