(2013)
In the morning wake And breathe fresh air To distract my thoughts From a recent nightmare Then go through processes
Walking talking depression Who’s too big around the waist Saying you’re messed up But what I’ll never understand Is how you think that you’re
You dance to the angels’ Song of life Completely unaware That God choreographed Your whole existence
Sitting on the bed And sometimes laying down The chill from the AC Is too uncomfortable I recoil from the breeze
Scars on legs And scars on arms Incisions on bodies And stitches for sealing Cuts and scrapes
I pretend I know everything, Or that I can do anything, But I don’t, And I can’t. Sure I may act
Eyes are shifting Slowly sifting Through the darkness Of the scrying glass, Hours spent staring
I want to be the one You tell your problems to, Because no one else seems to liste… I want to be the one Who understands you,
People walk Down the streets, Seeming happy As can be, Or maybe sad,
I’m like one of those people Who says that music is my soul Except it’s not Because music is meaningful And music drowns out noise
My sudden bursts Of depression Are like a typhoon Flooding a small island Or a hurricane
I’m like a broken plate That you threw on the ground Because you were upset But no matter what you do You can never fix it
In my ear, Ana whispers And tells me just Be thinner, dear But I fear
Passing Time I spend my days Falling through the glass That is our fragile world Chasing something
Sometimes I feel myself Willing to cry And sad over nothing I can remember That would make me upset