Memories that will never fade
Have you ever truly been by yourself all alone
Have you ever been left 3 months by yourself in a home
Have you ever have to feed yourself as a kid
Have you ever had a parent leave their child like mine did
Have you ever had someone close that died in the past year
Have you ever had it happen so often that you ran out of tears
Have you ever hated god for turning his back on you
Have you ever cried till your eyes were red and sore too
Did you ever have to walk two miles during a snow storm
Having to do it while wearing nothing to keep you warm
Did you ever lived in a home without hot water or power
Have you ever washed yourself in the winter and your body going numb in the shower
Did you ever try to commit suicide but then decided not to do it
Knowing it would kill your siblings and you couldn’t put them through it
Then don’t ever judge me and think that this is all for show
Because you don’t know half the things that you think you know
Thinking that I was beat as a child was all an act
The proof of abuse are written in the scars on my back
I’ve told you everything but you still think I’m lying
I only smile at school to hide the fact that I’m crying.
(15)
The poem is basically based on me because I've been hurt for so many times that I don't feel it when someone hurts me but it kills me when someone that I love hurts me.
