How do I say goodbye to someone I carried how do I make the hurt go away. How do I let my little man go and be okay with my life? How do I smile and grin thru my tears? How do I wake up and not be Brians mommy anymore. Please tell me how to hide the tears please tell me how to block his name? How do I wipe the hurt pain and hate away? I have to stop and remember he is gone so the answer is how can I not smile knowing Brian Lyons is in heaven hanging out with family friends and all the loved ones and how can I not rejoice over the fact that he is in heaven smiling and never hurting again. So how do I say mommy loves you little man and how do I not smile at the knowledge that my man will never hurt again.....