Walking up his driveway Heart pounding in my chest Mouth dry It’s been months since I’ve seen… I told him I needed some time

Agony, failure, regret, hate Wanting to be punished She staggers through the house Trying to find the answer She hates who she is

I just want to be loved Held, caressed Yearned for I want him to look so deeply into… That he sees right into my soul

Heavy bones, the mattress consumes… Sinking deeper into this debilitat… Get up mummy, I want to play Go back to bed sweetie, mummy is t… Save me from this debilitating dep…

Swirling, twirling dances in my he… I feel the smoothness of the liqui… Journeying through the thickness o… I stumble, laugh it off and then c… On my quest of self destruction

In a sea of bitterness and jealous… Dealt her cards of fate She takes her righteousness and pu… Down a tumbling whirlwind she ride… Fighting monsters hungry

Done it again Knife to wrist Held by my trembling fist Worthlessness, shame, guilt Resurrected after months of hibern…

How do you capture in words the un… Wounded hearts once left bleeding… Have resurrected themselves and no… Yet the pain remains inside the cr… That once spilled obsession, delus…

Scared to leave the house Cruel eyes staring at her every mo… Voices in her head She hears their judgement Paranoia envelops her mind

In the darkness she lies Heart pounding in her throat Eyes open wide Night time noises Loud and clear

Psychiatric waiting room Hygienic smell of sickness cleanse… Sitting in the waiting room Pondering, fidgeting Her diagnosis looming nearer

She feels tears streaming down her… Warm against her cheek Her eyes well up, the liquid spill… Like a waterfall Trickling down her face

You are the air I breathe The breath I once lost when I was… You pulled me from a sea of depres… Breathing life into my body once m… You are my light

A heart is embedded in the centre… Granting you the gift of love Breathing life into your body How ironic then that love Can also spear your heart

Turning the knob The water abruptly spurts from the… The robe adorning her Slips and glides From her body to the floor

Scarred and cynical Yet cold and lonely Love can be cruel and treacherous Yet it is harder to be solitary A lover all alone

The old clock in the room ticks so… Mysteriously kept alive of its own… The creaks in the wall speak of so… That is neither here nor there The ancient whispers of the house

Head heavy Pushing deeper against softness Pulled deeper inside Resting on a cloud Cocooned in blissful velvet

Does your mind ever wonder what it… Do you ever wonder if, given the c… You would choose never to have exi… If it meant that the world could b… Mine does

The love that cast shadows in her… She thought were true and everlast… But as time passed by The love she thought of as right a… This love took her to the depths o…

Diving into the ocean heart first The current surrounds you Pulling you under Deeper and deeper You are drowning

Not knowing, contemplating Images fill my head Twisting and turning Agonising, scrutinising, patronisi… All inside the mind of little ol’…

Creaks in the walls Ticking of the clock Crackling fire Dad’s radio plays softly in the ba… Cats hissing as they begin their m…

Tis a hard thing to accept yoursel… Stigma sticks to your skin like a… Judged by the world You feel alone Suffering in silence

Soft beating through my chest Thumping in my ears Now the constant drum roll stoppin… Holds myself in fear Once I swore I’d give it all away