jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was