it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again