My own light..
"you"
And I hope you come back
I don’t know when that will be
Maybe soon
Maybe in awhile
Maybe when our hearts arent such chaos
You opened my eyes or I think I opened them myself
I see how even with all my flaws I am a beautiful human
You made my insides warm
But you also made my mind a cold place
One look from you and it could set flames to my bruised heart and damaged soul
You made me whole
Or so I assume you may have
And now that you’re leaving for some while
Part of me is empty
Part of me feels lost
I am lost in my own wormhole of regrets and sadness
I regret not changing soon enough for you, for us.
I regret letting myself get too dependent
Now
I need to do things for me
It hurts
Its breaking me
You were my whole fucking night sky
Not just one star.
Perhaps I need to be my own sky now. My own light.
(2015)
written this week.
