I guess..
I guess you’ll never really know
You’ll never know how much I love your smile at 7 am in the morning
Or how much my heart would race when I would see your name pop up on my phone
You’ll never know all the words I said to the people who asked about you
How every second I spoke of you, My eyes lit up like fireworks and my mouth became numb because that’s how much love I have for you
So numb with love and so mesmerized
But I guess she’s better
I guess she can replace me now
But that’s okay
Because I hope you see something one day, that sparks a memory of me; of us.
I hope it hurts you. Makes you suffer even just a bit.
Because I guess you won’t know for awhile all the things I could have changed to make you stay. I would have given you all of me and more.
Like a thief who blinded me so completely, you stole my fucking heart.
I guess you’ll never know how it feels to fall for me over again. or to feel the love you once felt between us.
I guess maybe one day, you’ll remember.
Maybe not right now.
But some time it’ll cross your mind, I guess.
(2015)
