the essence of the belly like a white balloon sacked is disturbing like the running of feet on the stairs

take a writer away from his typewr… and all you have left is the sickness which started him

We got back to 1010. I had my check. I’d left word that we didn’t want to be disturbed. Tammie and I sat drinking. I’d read 5 or 6 love poems about her. “They knew who I was,” she said....

keep remembering the horses under the moon keep remembering feeding the horse… sugar white oblongs of sugar

ah, Merryman, fighter on the docks, killed a man while they were unloa… bananas. mean the man he killed

more wasted days, gored days, evaporated days. more squandered days, days pissed away,

consistency is terrific: shark-mouth grubby interior with an almost perfect body, long blazing hair—

murdered in the alleys of the land frost-bitten against flagpoles pawned by females educated in the dark for the dark vomiting into plugged toilets

bluebird there’s a bluebird in my heart tha… wants to get out but I’m too tough for him, say, stay in there, I’m not going

I walked off the job again and the police stopped me for running a red light at Serrano… my mind was rather gone and I stood in a patch of leaves

they’re not going to let you sit at a front table at some cafe in Europe in the mid-afternoon sun. you do, somebody’s going to

Katherine stayed 4 or 5 more days. We had reached the time of the month when it was risky for Katherine to fuck. I couldn’t stand rubbers. Katherine got some contraceptive foam. Meanwhi...

I went upstairs to 409, had a stiff scotch and water, took some money out of the top drawer, went down the steps, got in my car and drove to the racetrack. I got there in time for the f...