Feel sick to my stomach ... Heart is aching uncontrollably .... I feel it’s tears overwhelming me inside ... So much they can’t stop flowing from these eyes of mine... My mind appears to be on crack ... Going million miles per hour ... Not knowing how to stop ... Taking over every emotion within  me .. To become one ... Each in tune with the other .. Leaving me defenseless ... When all I want to do is run away from me ... But this is my fight ... Can’t run from myself ...  Ugh I want to tex you so bad ... Tell you how much I miss you.. Having you near. Keeping me calm .. But now ... I’m bothered ... Every inch of me is looking for you ... Craving you ... Knowing your out of reach .. No longer belonging to me ... My selfishness taking over ... Don’t want to imagine nobody but me near you. I want to be the air you breathe and need .. I want to be every beat in your heart .. My heart ... Don’t want it to turn ice cold ... Just want to wrap my soul around you ... Intoxicate you with my very being ...until you have no room for doubt in that beautiful mind of yours ..