While You're Living
While you’re googling careers
I’m googling ways to kill myself
While you’re asking questions about your lessons
I’m silently begging for help
While you’re out with friends
I’m in bed
Trying to ignore the voices in my head
I hurt myself again
From the inside and out
While you’re sleeping peacefully
I’m laying in bed wide awake
I’m pondering all the precautions I should take
How many pills will put me to a sleep I shall not awake
I wonder if it’s truly worth it or if all I am is a mistake
My life is so meaningless
It’s so easy to take
While you’re on the phone with your friends
I’m on the suicide hotline
While you’re too busy
I have too much free time
While you laugh and breathe and enjoy your days
I’m suffering silently in excruciating pain
While you look towards a new day
I look towards my end
While you’re writing essays and your resumé
I’m writing my last words
It’s hard to look forward to the future when everything hurts
While you’re still trying
While you’re living on
I’m dying
You have a future
My future has long since gone
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