#AmericanWriters #1993 #ThePleasuresOfTheDamned
what you see is what you see: madhouses are rarely on display. that we still walk about and scratch ourselves and light
I awaken about noon and go out to… in my old torn bathrobe. I’m hung over hair down in my eyes barefoot
the telephone has not been kind of… of late there have been more and m… from people who want to come over… from people who are depressed from people who are lonely
she left me 5 weeks ago and went t… that is, I think she left. the other day I went out to mail h… and I saw her sitting on the bus s… it was her hair there
here they come these guys grey truck radio playing they are in a hurry
she was in her orange Volks waitin… as I walked up the street with 2 six packs and a pint of sco… and she jumped out and began grabbing the beerbottles…
they found him walking along the f… all red in front he had taken a rusty tin can and cut off his sexual
love, he said, gas kiss me off kiss my lips kiss my hair my fingers
she was hot, she was so hot I didn’t want anybody else to have… and if I didn’t get home on time she’d be gone, and I couldn’t bear… I’d go mad. . .
he talked about Steinbeck and Tho… wrote like a cross between the two… and I lived in a hotel on Figuero… close to the bars and he lived further uptown in a s…
listening to Bruckner on the radio wondering why I’m not half mad over the latest breakup with my latest girlfriend wondering why I’m not driving the…
all right, while we are gently cel… and while crazy classical music le… my small radio, I light a fresh ci… and realize that I am still very m… the 21st century is almost upon me…
I didn’t do much the rest of the week. The Oaktree meet was on. I went to the track 2 or 3 times, broke even. I wrote a dirty story for a sex mag, wrote 10 or 12 poems, masturbated, and...
“what?” they say, “you got a computer?” it’s like I have sold out to the enemy. I had no idea so many
of course, I may die in the next t… and I’m ready for that but what I’m really worried about… that my editor—publisher might ret… even though he is ten years younge…