(2013)
Under the weight of life I forget how to breathe and I feel suffocated I hesitantly make peace with the world
Loving you was never sweet like the taste of vanilla the way I thought it was supposed to be It was more like
Forever seems like so long until I think of all the times spent waiting
I’ve kept my eyes closed most of these past eighteen years because I find it just as dark
I hope this is postmarked before my death certificate is dat… but you’ll know why if it is or if it isn’t If you get this in time
Everyday brings a new death in three words give or take Some days I drown
There seems to be a drought in my… but who knows if it is the cause or the result of the war raging within me
I grew up in a house built in 1937 long before codes and regulations and sometimes
I wish you had told me that on the good days kissing you would make me think that I knew what happiness was and on the bad days
Life is an uphill struggle Nothing comes easy and only hard work pays off I don’t like hard work was my 5 word protest
I see words screaming for attention etched in the lines of your face Let me look closer
The road is long and winding like nothing you can imagine Too many off ramps to count but too few in hindsight
Everyday I visit the only writers block I know to hone my words and wit and help them cut deeper into the skin
I’ve always been at the very least a little caught up on everything about you This idea of you
Just when I get back on my feet you pass on by and I lose my footing Again
