My Little Secret
Three in the morning,
I’m thinking of you.
Feelings so strong,
you have no clue.
What is wrong?
What is right?
So many feelings,
so hard to fight.
I once was so happy,
where’d that go?
It’s almost the end.
That I know.
Day by day,
my bones are getting frail.
Day by day
my skin is getting pale.
It’s my little secret,
that’s how it’ll stay.
I can’t help but wonder;
when will it by my last day?
It kills me inside.
He doesn’t know.
How do I say
I have to go?
He tries so hard,
I push him away.
He doesn’t understand,
I can’t stay.
I love him so much,
that’s why I leave.
He deserves so much more,
but that he can’t see.
Everyday,
the symptoms are worse.
How did this happen?
Why did I get this curse?
All I can do is dream.
Dream of a normal life.
I want to hang out with friends,
I want to be someone’s wife.
He asks how I am,
as always I’m fine.
Somehow he knows,
he knows it’s not benign.
It was my little secret,
I kept it for so long.
Somehow he knew.
something was wrong.
The doctors try their best;
they tell me not to fear.
I know in my heart;
the end is near.
I have to tell him now.
He has to know.
He’s the love of my life.
He’s my favorite hello.
I take one last walk
his hand intertwined in mine.
I share with him my feelings.
Softly he whispers “baby you’re fine”
Darling, he says,
don’t be afraid.
I will always love you;
that’ll never fade.
Together or not
you’ll always be with me,
in my heart and on my mind.
That the is the key.
I knew you were sick.
That’s why I stayed.
I couldn’t let you go,
I was too afraid.
He wipes my tears.
Says “baby don’t cry”.
God needs you now,
It’s your turn to fly.
Just remember:
It’s never goodbye.
I’ll see you again soon,
high in the sky.
Until then,
I’ll be fighting for you.
But for right now
I bid you adieu.
