hole in me
This enormous, sore hole in me extends & deepens
So empty, so cold & bare
I long for something to fill that huge hole in me but it continues to tear
nothing succeeds to fulfil it.
The pain is insufferable, indescribable
a century ago, my emotions escaped
I feel nothing, no pain, no happiness
Dear hole in me, just go.
my eyes stare at unseen objects, they’re not even there
Constantly thinking life is unfair
This kind of pain I cannot bear
I keep holding on, holding on to what I assumed was there
so unloved, so uncared for like I’ve lost what I had before ..
I’m losing my intelligence,
all I gained was this guilty conscience
Am I to blame for everything peculiar that has happened?
Should I try and pray, or leave my issues unattended?
Should I cease to try to fulfil this enormous space in me and let it grow?
dear hole in me just go
(2014)
