terror finally becomes almost bearable but never quite terror creeps like a cat crawls like a cat

I could see the road ahead of me. I was poor and I was going to stay poor. But I didn’t particularly want money. I didn’t know what I wanted. Yes, I did. I wanted someplace to hide out,...

old Butch, they fixed him the girls don’t look like much anymore. when Big Sam moved out of the back

think of the beds used again and again to fuck in to die in. in this land

I began getting dizzy spells. I could feel them coming. The case would begin to whirl. The spells lasted about a minute. I couldn’t understand it. Each letter was getting heavier and he...

New Year’s Eve was another bad night for me to get through. My parents had always delighted in New Year’s Eve, listening to it approach on the radio, city by city, until it arrived in L...

think of de vils in hell and stare at a beautiful vase of flowers as the woman in my bedroom

I only met one student at City College that I liked, Robert Becker. He wanted to be a writer. “I’m going to learn everything there is to learn about writing. It will be like taking a ca...

the virus holds the concepts give way like rotten shoelaces toothache and bacon dance on the lawn

one of the terrible things is really being in bed night after night with a woman you no longer

Sara was preparing the turkey dressing and I sat in the kitchen talking to her. We were both sipping white wine. The phone rang. I went and got it. It was Debra. “I just wanted to wish ...

After English class one day Mrs. Curtis asked me to stay. She had great legs and a lisp and there was something about the legs and the lisp together that heated me up. She was about 32,...

love, he said, gas kiss me off kiss my lips kiss my hair my fingers

light brown stare that dumb blank marvelous light brown stare I’ll take care of it.

One night my father took me on his milk route. There were no longer any horsedrawn wagons. The milk trucks now had engines. After loading up at the milk company we drove off on his rout...