The surroundings I put myself in, is due to the fact I’m afraid of being alone. Isolation is what I think is best for this situation. Wrong doing or even causing myself more pain, pushes me off the ledge or the urge to hurt myself. My sense of kindness and love that holds in me helps me know that I care for my love ones. Separation is something I’m scared of. Knowing that, the raging, rushing adrenaline causes me to lose my mind. Keeping calm, they say. Having them hard falls, where calm doesn’t come into play. The confused and the lost button is floating in another dimension. Where I no longer exist, and everything losing it’s shape, color and form. Finding a beautiful soothing musical that rings in my mind, relaxing the tensions in my muscles, will make my day brighter as the sun shining in the sky!