I’m angry and I feel it and I can’t even blame some bitch

I’m angry and I feel it and I wanna say some shit

You hurt me and that pain breathes and You still don’t understand.  I loved you and You played me you never had a plan.

We blazed a child this shit is wild

You couldn’t take it like a man

You’ve retreated.  You’re not defeated.

You’re not being all you can.

She needs a father this little child

Who will show her the right way

I’m f***ing angry and you ain’t shit

Twisted behavior.  It’s got me ripped..

Is that all you’ve got?  Empty words.

Made to hurt. Because I gave you everything, flesh merging with flesh in  Holy contrast.  Tender and sweet, we rode this wave of fantasy and made something REAL.  

Hmph

heavy with judgement trashing my reality while in reality it’s YOU who got it wrong. You who took advantage, my naive heart so tender

Blunder after blunder, my vision blurred

Shared pain and past misfortune equates to nothing

Desire times desire times desire

Pleasure leads to pain

Hypnotized and mesmerized

Didn’t see it coming.  

Lone wolf.  Stories of past trauma, etched deep into your psyche.

I didn’t know.  The darkness,

On this journey, the one that only I can take

mixed up thinking, sick addictions, blocking my flow.

Im learning it’s not hard to be alone

Trying to see truth, I gotta know

Still Angels whisper low, I can’t hear them above all this commotion.

The reality is

Consciousness doesn’t come easy

As I breathe deeply. Om. shanti shanti. This shits not working!

Grasping for minimal relief

Religious beliefs?

I Don’t want to feel this grief.

Above it all is unity, collective energy.  Beauty shows no form.