We shared many moments
Feelings and desires swayed in slow motion
Conversations at night left me wondering and hoping
An initial thought had crossed my mind
That you may have only wanted me for a night
Or two
Drop me when you felt it suited you
Ignore my cries for It matters not how I feel
But perhaps I was wrong
You inquired about me
Comforted me
Encouraged and supported me
Though I still held onto my doubts and deemed myself unworthy of your attention
My growing love for you I constantly mentioned
How I adore your honesty and see past your imperfections
I never meant to push you away
I was genuinely afraid
Bombarded by images of my grave
The mistreatment I had endured as I constantly tried to find my way
But you could never understand
So you let go of my hand
Buried me far beneath the sand
It pains me to accept what could only be the truth
As I read between the lines you carefully choose
I’d come to the heart wrenching conclusion that maybe
Just maybe, I was never truly wanted
By you