Forgive to let Go
Sometimes I wish, I could turn my brain, heart, conscience, everything off.. Nothing to hear nothing to listen too, just silence. Then just hear each of there thoughts individually, one by one. Decipher each, till I could contemplate what exactly to do. Love my life free, no dead weights, no lifers, no haters, haters can stand by, haters can watch, watch me leave, watch me succeed. I’m not here to be a show, but if that’s what your gonna play, I’ll be the freaking star.
Don’t hate on someone when all they have is talent and heart, and all you have to give is mindless, useless knowledge. Just don’t. Walk away.
I’m in love with myself. It took me way to long, it took me a lot of troubled years and months, of wrong paths, wrong people. But I found me, I found my light. I could smile at myself and not pick apart every single thing wrong with myself. I still do, I still am cruel to myself, but never will I say I hate myself secretly to myself again. If I don’t love who I am, I will walk away, I will drop my dead weight, break it down into tiny pieces, if I have to, and drag it along. Letting each piece behind, disintegrate, mesmerized by the unfamiliarity of it. And when it’s easy I’ll let you know.
No one can or will drag me down. No one. I hate thinking about choices I’ve made I’ve had to recover from, others have it worse, others are so forgiving too. I don’t, I need to just let it go. I can’t forgive everyone or myself for every wrong doing, but I can make it right in my own way.
