(2013)
It is me. I am stripped down to my most naked intentions; having worn so many coats and less than noble guises.
I was surrounded by many desperate, troubled people. There was much drinking, drugging, and violence. Women were being bought and sold,
The old man, who thinks he’s dying, approached me with these words. I am sorry
I dreamed of being lost and trappe… in a land of angry fearful liars. There was nowhere to run or hide. I cowered cornered and exhausted, my back against the furthest wall;
I stared at her like she was a painting, as if I had all day and night to drink in every curve and contour
I hide here behind a genuine misbelief that I am special, I am different I and only I
You think you know me, that figment dancing in your mind’… You think you understand me, that puppet dangling from imaginar… You believe you know what’s best f…
Who of you will follow where I’m bound to go? None that I can see. None that I can name. No-one that I know.
A subtle movement, a facial expression, a particular posture, the constant hint of danger; as if he were here again,
Listen. There it is. The hum of perfect silence at the centre of all that is, and isn’t.
I see no reason now to disguise this naked heart and soul of mine. You can hide there
It’s only you that I can trust to hear these words as true. Those I know seem blinded by some notion or another about me. You are my closest confidant
This trembling grief is for a long lost soul, a young, guileless child I once knew as me. I truly believed
Some time ago, I made my way down to the crossroads, to try my lucky hand at the devil’s gaming tables.
Seems no way out, but deep within. There’s a resonant voice calling from the depths of my being; I am not what you imagine me to be…