A Waiting Start
It seems like I’m missing something
But I know that’s not true because I checked everything twice
I’m even using that special fuel He gave me
He said I could use it to run forever
So far that’s been true
I’m impressed
So I continue working
Fixing the gears
Mending the cogs
Working on my heart
You see
Most people have normal hearts
But my heart is different
My heart is a gearbox
And I’m constantly modifying it
Constantly working on it
To keep myself running
To keep myself going
And if I think about it
That’s what I’m missing
Someone to share my heart with
But my heart’s not ready yet
Not nearly
It needs a lot more work before it can handle that kind of strain
The last time I tried showing it to someone
It was nearly destroyed
And it wasn’t her fault either
It was all mine
I was ignorant and naive
I didn’t know how to take care of my heart
And I wasn’t using the right fuel
But at least now I can say that I am using the right fuel
The only right fuel
And maybe
Just maybe
If I continue working hard
I’ll be able to share my heart again soon
Because I’ve found someone again
And I really want to share this with her
'~Soul Seeker'
