Hope in another form but no fewer letters and I’ve been hoping for these past eight years so I’ll just keep on

I hope this is postmarked before my death certificate is dat… but you’ll know why if it is or if it isn’t If you get this in time

I see words screaming for attention etched in the lines of your face Let me look closer

So much time passes without feeling a single thing that I think I would give anything

If I was once the tallest mountain your love was the wind that eroded me to nothing

I get my silence in five minute doses before the plane overhead brings me back to earth

I’ve kept my eyes closed most of these past eighteen years because I find it just as dark

I thought I could drink you away but I had to stop being so drunk on you first

I wish you had told me that on the good days kissing you would make me think that I knew what happiness was and on the bad days