I hate myself I hate my life. I hate who I’ve become I hate what I must do. I hate the world

I feel sick Headless Spinning round And Round

Second guessing Second story Second secret Second promise. Second word

My body is crying It’s screaming your name Screaming out for help Screaming to be saved The tears dry up

Anger fills inside me Burning last night’s scars I lose control I let the anger take hold of me I hit the wall

My life was happy and pure It seems a distant memory A lifetime away A lifetime of fear The pain I fear will never go

Heart pounding Palms sweating Blood pumping Mind racing Ears ringing

Twist it, Turn it Push it, Pull it Scratch it, Scrape it Drag it, Draw it Thrust it, Force it

I hate to disappoint But lately it’s all I do I haven’t put my cloths away I haven’t done my work Oh no it’s overdue

I feel the panic rising an urge I can’t control. I feel the need consume me a fear I can’t break free. I feel your gentle fingers

Heart pounding Palms sweating Blood pumping Mind racing Ears ringing

I close my eyes and I hear your voice. A whisper in the dark drowning me in pain. I look up at you

My heart beats fast, Steady and strong, I hear yours beating too. The life you live, The love you give,

Living in a bubble An escape from reality Hidden a memory of the past How life used to be Before I knew me