I feel like I want to hurt, To show myself how beautiful this… The illusion makes me strong. I feel like I can’t get hurt, But I still hope for the pain of…
My broken heart Throbs dysfunctionally. It beats to a cracked rhythm Between dead, dead, dead And life, life, life.
I had no right To fall in love with you. All those times I promised you That I’d never fall in love again Were lies because I fell in love…
I was born of the Virgin Mary, Given life to rid earth of evil. Blood on my hands, Dirt on my hands, I’m akin with Christ Himself.
While you were gone, My childhood dog died. I wept for both of you, And I felt like a corpse. While you were gone,
You ruined me. How could you? You’re my mother. You were supposed to be strong. Not me.
I wish I could tell my brother That I loved him, But the words are tight in my thro… And I’m a coward. I wish I didn’t say “thank you”
Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,
The blur of lighted cars Flying in a flurry down The highway at night Soothes me in the Most unorthodox way.
I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.
That red ribbon is so wrinkled. Rouge like blood Or rushing anger Or a blaring stop sign. It’s crumpled:
Woah. The bright sky Makes me want to live, And the grass Smells too good to miss.
If only My tears were colors. There would be pink on my pillow And green on my shoes. There would be red on the paper
I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth
Why am I crying? I’m not crying at the loss of love… I’m crying because I never experi… True love. I wanted epic.
