She looked like innocence And felt like sin And died like grace And fell like a bird And fell like a bird

Am I incurable? It seems so. I’m an incorrigible invalid Of the heart.

Splattered you All over my body And flecks of skin Inside every crevice. I can’t get rid of you

Without you, I feel the pain. The rain seems cold now. Thunder is only evil, And the sky is bare and pale.

Perfection is an evil reflection On what is really real. Solitude is my gratitude When I am sad. Numbness equals oneness

I don’t understand. I don’t understand the cruelty The darkness The fear This choking feeling.

Last night, all I saw was Nancy. The way she cried when I held her… Like a fleshy cradle Around her broken heart. I saw her loving me

I’m silently screaming Alone in the bathroom. The tears of a sinner Won’t let my fears go. I’m suddenly drowning.

Love starts like this: We like the same books, We like the same music, We seem like a match made in high… It crumbles like this:

In my daydreams, I used to be an acrobat, Flying through air Into capable hands. In my dreams,

I can’t cease to think about him. His bitter way only warms my heart… He frightens me and excites me. He always heightens my senses. He makes my heart hurt.

Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,

A tree fell in the park last night… I didn’t hear it go. The innards smelled of peppermint, And I felt the crumbling dirt Turn into ash in my hand.

Let my joy be a promise To my future self Who is so beautiful Even if she isn’t pretty.