I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.

I cannot bring myself to cry. I can’t decide if this is a curse Or a blessing.

I remember how I cried When they cut down Our tree.

When you taste your own sweet tear… Know I’ll be there. When the night becomes a friend, Know

Don’t cry Don’t cry Don’t cry Because it’s your birthday.

If I should die before I wake, don’t cry, For that was what I always wanted…

The grass was dewy. You carried me on your back. I could feel your heartbeat Through your shirt. I wanted you to be mine,

The devil’s in my midst.

There’s so much blood in blood cou… As there are stones in my heart When I hear your name. The winged-pig can fly daily Once I’ve let myself remember

My mother is the darkness inside m… She planted the seed That grew into brambles, And now, I can’t be loud Because she makes me so

It’s over. It’s okay. The parting is such sorrow And relief. It hurts like a crushing force,

A seagull carried me away one day And took me to a secret island hid… I laughed at the waves and splashe… I even wrote notes to go with a so… The seagull was leaving and waved…

Winter is getting worse. Is there no justice In my punishment Brought about by my peers? I yearn to burrow in warm dirt

Mark, I miss you, And I love you. Each day is lost Without you.