Like Augustus, I fear oblivion When I should pass.

I don’t understand. I don’t understand the cruelty The darkness The fear This choking feeling.

In seventh grade, I made you a po… But I tore it up into pieces Because it wasn’t good enough. In eighth grade, I made you a poe… But I left it under my bed

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

How can somebody Who loves to explore Be so afraid to leave?

While you were gone, My childhood dog died. I wept for both of you, And I felt like a corpse. While you were gone,

Perfection is an evil reflection On what is really real. Solitude is my gratitude When I am sad. Numbness equals oneness

Shambles: They hold my life together. I’m shredded into slices, Trying to hold it whole, And I wonder if anyone

I could hop on a train. Grow akin to the screaming and whi… Where would I go? Far from here, from cold. Tell my parents my love,

I came back from a mortal hell, But on my way home, I saw no white god, And I saw no golden spirit, And I saw no true son.

My mother is the darkness inside m… She planted the seed That grew into brambles, And now, I can’t be loud Because she makes me so

You were the devil. I knew it before you did; And I was St. Mary With clouds trailing behind me. I gave you my virtue

You know, I miss you both Like I miss my childhood blanket That I wonder idly about.