With him, It’s like there were no scars. There are no sheepish looks No burning shame. There was no John

I was born of the Virgin Mary, Given life to rid earth of evil. Blood on my hands, Dirt on my hands, I’m akin with Christ Himself.

I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

I love John. I love when he cries. When he looks at me, I fly.

In my daydreams, I used to be an acrobat, Flying through air Into capable hands. In my dreams,

Nobody wishes so Such as me To die quickly Or be mauled in Such a manner that

She fell like rain, Like a bird, Like a comet chasing light, Like a star dropping from the nigh… Like a stone in water,

You ruined me. How could you? You’re my mother. You were supposed to be strong. Not me.

Am I incurable? It seems so. I’m an incorrigible invalid Of the heart.

Nobody can see the darkness in me, And when I go deep, I bring a flashlight to slash thro… The dark. I once used to frolic in light,

I feel that one never stops Loving their past loved ones. The nostalgia remembers all the Times when you slept in their bed, When you first opened up,

Like Augustus, I fear oblivion When I should pass.

You are the best thing Because things like that do not co… You are my moon and sun Because you make my days real. You are my best friend,

Last night, all I saw was Nancy. The way she cried when I held her… Like a fleshy cradle Around her broken heart. I saw her loving me

My mother is the darkness inside m… She planted the seed That grew into brambles, And now, I can’t be loud Because she makes me so