Two sides
HE never understood, but I never cared enough to explain.
And YOU promised too many things you weren’t capable to be.
HE didn’t know that I wanted to die with my last words being your name.
And YOU couldn’t see how much I loved you, even though it poured right out of me.
HE told me to believe, but looked at me like I was crazy.
And YOU wanted so much from me, so much that I couldn’t give.
I traveled with HIM in my mind on the days I wasn’t lazy.
And YOU still remain the one big excuse for me to live.
HE always walked away when I’d confide in one of his own.
And YOU didn’t recognize who I was when I prayed for things to change.
What happened to the moments when I wanted to be alone?
And YOU became someone different. Somewhat childlike and caged.
I didn’t understand, but HE didn’t care and never told me.
And YOU were beautiful in all your ugliness. With your daggers cutting deep.
HE saw who I never was but I never saw who he was supposed to be.
And YOU watched us fade away. With nothing left but tears to weep.
(2010)
This is probably one of the most complicated poems to understand that I've ever written.
The two people I am talking about are my father and my ex..also known as my first love.
I have a pretty bad relationship with my father, just as I had a pretty bad relationship with my ex. The poem is basically saying how I blame my father for the way my ex treated me, and for the way our relationship turned out/ended.
