June 13th, 2023 One can dream
Help me to understand it Help open up my eyes I’m trying to move past it But I can’t seem to see why When we’re together
My hands grow weaker This hold I will prolong My legs shake and quiver But still I’ll stand strong My mind is chaos
If you told me To lay down my arms I would raise my shields Yet I surrender If you warned me
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
It would be easier If I could hate you If you had so utterly decimated me That I couldn’t stand again It would be easier
I see you Stars have gone from your eyes int… The warmth of the sun feels so fam… In the drops of rain I can hear y… Letting my tears blend with each d…
I want to walk away I want this hope to stay I’m twisted and torn My promise, I’m sworn To see you again someday
This noose of hope Around my neck A memory rope Myself I wreck I cannot leave
It’s easy to tell someone, “Just move on”, When you weren’t the one In their shoes. It’s easy to tell someone,
Do not assume these words of hurt Are directed at you I have bared to you my heart and s… Yet our words remained withheld Do not assume these words of pain
Rain & sun Flowers bloom Spring has sprung Fading the gloom In summers heat
You Your Your voice Echoes ghostly In the halls of my memories
A sudden Good-Bye Is not a finality But a paused Hello
It’s not the familiarity It’s not the loneliness It’s not the memories It’s not the safety It’s not the comfortability
Like a tower of crystal glasses My hope stacks higher Waiting to come crashing down And lacerate my heart below A thousand tiny shards
