June 17th, 2023 Read it again. And again. And again.
Because you brighten my day Even when the sun’s shining When I’m feeling down & fret You’re my silver lining Your warmth is like a buffet
When we met You found me At my worst When we loved Time stood still
One day I hope your love Will reunite with mine Or so I tell myself because It won’t
A sudden Good-Bye Is not a finality But a paused Hello
I want to walk away I want this hope to stay I’m twisted and torn My promise, I’m sworn To see you again someday
As I step forward I look back for one last time I wish you all the best
This noose of hope Around my neck A memory rope Myself I wreck I cannot leave
People always say, “These feelings will fade away” Which ones, love or pain?
My vision clouds with these tears Tears made from our memories Maybe one day the they will stop Or I won’t feel them anymore
This hope A cold burning A flame made of shadow Fueled by need and fueled by desir… Goes out
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
I mourn not for what we had, I mourn for a future lost. A foundation laid of promises, Promises that now seem so easily b… I cry not for this loneliness,
This bed is too big I have too much space These blankets are too much Engulfing me, but I still shiver I have too much food
What I mistook for your warmth I now realize was actually a freez… You found me, built me up Then destroyed me You claim to care about me
Were your reasons true? Were they for me or for you? Was there really nothing we could… I wonder. Why was it easier to hide?
