Charles Bukowski

Ham on Rye: 9

By the time they called me to dinner I was able to pull up my clothing
and walk to the breakfast nook where we ate all our meals except on Sunday. There were two pillows on my chair. I sat on them but my legs and ass still burned. My father was talking about his job, as always.
“I told Sullivan to combine three routes into two and let one man go
from each shift. Nobody is really pulling their weight around there . . .”
“They ought to listen to you, Daddy,” said my mother.
“Please,” I said, “please excuse me but I don’t feel like eating . . .
”You’ll eat your FOOD!" said my father. “Your mother prepared this
food!”
“Yes,” said my mother, “carrots and peas and roast beef.”
“And the mashed potatoes and gravy,” said my father.
“I’m not hungry.”
“You will eat every carrot, and pee on your plate!” said my father.
He was trying to be funny. That was one of his favorite remarks.
“DADDY!” said my mother in shocked disbelief. I began eating. It was
terrible. I felt as if I were eating them, what they believed in,
what they were. I didn’t chew any of it, I just swallowed it to get rid of
it. Meanwhile my father was talking about how good it all tasted, how lucky
we were to be eating good food when most of the people in the world, and many even in America, were starving and poor.
“What’s for dessert. Mama?” my father asked. His face was horrible, the
lips pushed out, greasy and wet with pleasure. He acted as if nothing had happened, as if he hadn’t beaten me. When I was back in my bedroom I thought, these people are not my parents, they must have adopted me and now they are unhappy with what I have become.

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