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, by Ricardo Gomez Angel
C.R.Stanger

Fire Wall.

Will we walk where others have walked and many have died before?
And run right through it?
Unscathed
Even bathed
Even cleansed
I miss you as I can sense
Sense it in the basement of a mansion.
A mansion built of only walls.
Fire tore out its insides
Beautiful from the outside
So where I miss you is in the inside.
Not where it is burned
But I keep it in the basement
Where it’s still moist
Damp and water to the knees
But that didn’t make me not believe
My senses laid somewhere underneath
And I still cannot breathe.
My happiness weighs not of you
For you I did not need
I simply wanted it.
The walls outside I repainted and left the dirty insides dead.
Come into the stairway, walk down into where I left all I’d ever bled.
All the water flooded, red.
There you’ll find deep and drowning what had be spoke but never said.
 
Leave now.
To find our higher selves
In the clean, where others would have dirtied their heart.
Fell apart.
Maybe because they were already dirtied
Or perhaps because it was 1230
If I could I’d go back to the start
I’d lay out what I would do and wouldnt be a part
But you were not seeing truth
Thought so highly of a self far surpassed by wisdoms elsewhere
And you chose to be that and so how does that fair?
Every warning was at the threshold
I was made to pull these energies in
For what is it you were made?
Wasting what you’ve been given
Washing your pain in the filthy water of your own pain.
You got no more lessons and no more gain
to be found in crying wolf and playing victim
Obsessing over your own name
Kissing the mirror you look in before punching the glass
You hate and love everything that looks like yourself
AndI destroy them maybe you’ll find a sense of self
You identify
With tearing others down
Time to rise and realize
You have a calling larger than making yourself seem like a dangerous blessing
With your only confessing how you surround yourself with those who bow to your whim
And try to socially assassinate anyone who saw something greater in an ingrate
I was simply guided to be the bait
So you could spiritually awake and no it’s never too late.
Only those born to lose
use the words I cannot, too late, too hard., or I’m to far gone, I give it to fate
Fate is a two way street
It gives us the surprise but what to keep.
And  what we do is for our eyes to discern
Be ready to change because what is learned
Cannot be unlearned
And everyone and every person that pleased you before
You’ll walk without issue far away from
If this is not this lives choice?
So you Walk mentally from door to door
On houses with the for sale signs saying sold
 constantly knocking others from their own lane
Care isn’t obsession
Advice isn’t arrogance
Affection isn’t clingy
When you turn around and use and act clever
But you would not
not how many anymore and you
I gave over only a level of my truth
And the dark on their life was the same on me, same on you
In time enough will be shown
An answer.
And I have will.
A will that is unbreakable
If this was only understood you’d not even beg for what you’d already been given
Strength of mind and soul.
But did you?
No, you did not search for the answer.
You should have.
Spoke.
Those words would have built the very foundation in what you really desired.
Run through the fire.
Love kept you from the burn
Yet  burn forever to live in your soul
Hidden so no other would ever see.
No other would ever know.
Too Ashamed for anyone to know your whole
What a shame
The game
It would’ve tamed
Two tired of their own aims
I rhymed those very words so many time you know what’s to blame
Dropped it behind and moved on all so they wouldn’t have to explain
What went wrong
Even though they sang the same song
Would’ve gotten along
Couldve held eternity in their hand.
Reached for the other
Again and again
Through those flames?
Too many walk and die
Fall by the way side
But those like you and I?
Could Run right through it
Unscathed because we know
Oh we know
Exactly what we are doin
And the great crime is we think we don’t
Think we didn’t.
Even worse we think the other does not see
Exactly what the other saw
But we both know only to well don’t we?
We set eachother free
Are chained invisibly to eachother
Do not lie to me
We will grow fruit upon that tree that isn’t dead
But green.
Every leave that falls
That says to me
You can never trust you
and you can never trust me
We will simply fall into dust
You’ll simply have to help me help trusting you with ease
I’ll show you how to trust
I’ll help you see it is us
That we run from and run to
It’s darker here but it’s a faded blue
If it’s you it’s me
And if it’s me it’s you.
I don’t glow if you don’t glow
That glow is an ember needing to be blow into a flame
In the wind burnt to the bone
I cannot know unless you know
Go with the flow or finish slow
It’s only us
That we truly know
When the moon rises
We become the same monster
You just didn’t know
And when we realize it
All we could be?
Is right here within
All we are and where we have been
All is  good and sin
We know how to do what we should do
The lifetimes we have spent
Running from one another
I can’t bear another
But going you must
I’ll see you next time
By then maybe your lessons will be mine
All those foolish signs
Will stop screaming I miss you
I tried others but it’s not them
They can set me out to swim
But the water gets to cold
Too old
Too quickly
I miss you.
I’ll never walk away
But not exactly how you believed
And if exactly how I say.
Or portray
Post humously
Before the dead
And the truth of not you but me
Bled
Stil I’ll never be through
It’s always me
And it’s always been you.
Run and hide but you run from the inevitable.
I know I see the fire you started
To burn bridges made of iron
They cannot be burnt
You’ve already earned
Nothing you have done
And I know very well the list the list is very long
I waded it up and threw it away
I’m too easy goin for broken rules to get in the way
You don’t even have to say it
The sun rises every mornin to make a new day.
Unfortunately just because I think it’s a mistake to stay away
Does not me I don’t want exactly that
Because it’s the nature of this connection
To grow apart and part grow
Enlightenment we discover may not be for eachother
But I still feel together
But physically never.
This wall of flame only made to keep us apart
Has with it a reason and it’s not of the heart.
Come down beside me and lay
I mean the ghost of what we knew
The souls you believe not
Burn down what you’ve been taught
I’m doin it to
Never meant to be end but start
A race made just for you and I
Do not give up, just slowly depart.
All that does not agree with who you really are.
And all you really are?
If it’s killing you. It’s killing me it’s so easy to see
You don’t care about me
I don’t really care about you
Not the one this world made
Those versions were meant to burn then pass away from eachother.
But the shadow of ourselves are chasing eachother
Because we love ourselves
So we love the other.
Beside eachother in the void
While you just avoid
Foolish for calling what seemed foolish to you out
You don’t have a clue what it’s really about.
Fire wall to keep eachother out to fuse the soul to
I’ll help you see yourself
Walk through our flames unscathed
I’ve yet to see evidence even with all the wrong you’ve committed
And the wrong I’ve not seen me do
Maybe I did
Maybe not just you lied.
Maybe not just I cried.
I wish I could say that seriously
All you broke was trust.
Because it wasn’t the mind or heart but deeper.
And that could not be broken
What lay up spoken
So enjoy the trophy this worldly
Indecent goal
I’m sorry I know it’s empty and not what you were told
You got to sure and much too bold.
You beleived everyone’s inner voice but your own
So if you’r without me and your inside the change
Don’t be so sure I’m not in the side notes
I know it’s often strange
But I was never fantasizing some wild spiritual bond
I just heard what I felt
It’s not about love and hearts felt
Not in the body you think you know
Not in the mind some world of friendship spelt
Could be all but none
Not it’s in the glow of health
Or you’re doin it wrong
It’s in the song
you already know of your self
You thought you left me out in the cold?
Actually the feeling of wholeness got only stronger
The infinite weirdness got only longer
It never took a toll
You can hate the flame that is my soul
Because you hate yourself and all you stole
So give me the ear before the ear turns old.
Release your vice like hold
But no you refuse to break your mold
In denial saying you’re okay.
Go ahead and think it but is it true
Or are you simply without me ok.
That does not mean your out of the red
Insides of the dead.
Fate is fate
My catalyst bled
Try to make me feel unimportant just made the truth louder said.
And when you surrender to it
And realize what your idea of it isn’t what the reality is
You’ll see what I mean and you’ll see me.
You’ll disagree
But when you don’t
You won’t
Keep running for the rodeo
You’ll take it slower
A whistle blower in the quiet of your mind  a power
That speaks to me
But tricks are over
I can dance tower to tower
And you think I’m not telling my self this same thing?
Maybe youll know what I mean one day
Promise it just isn’t who you thinks
The enemy
I was trying to help
Even when I knew all you wanted was for me to sink.
I think you just have a problem thinking I could ever know your true nature
And still give you the time of day
Let them go
That have their hold
Death like grip of the standards of yesterday
I’m tired of the same take I’ve told
Do something
I am
No bluff, I fold
As love of the world can stay I accept them
Anyone
You ever grow tired I’ll be there
I’d help you turn your world of gray
Back into Gold.

Idk I just wrote this cuz I got quiet...it’s quiet in this here house tonight haha.. so music and quiet made me write. But this is the true meaning of firewall...

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