this is like part of a series which some i won't post so like, the number is there for me not you. the number does not matter i am just too lazy to give all my poems clever titles.
he’s full of tuesdays and peonies, and i’m made up of saturdays and b… so he says, forgive and forget, and i say, get high and throw dart… he’s got his arms open wide
i flick the lighter on, on, on off. a useless fidget, one that turns my thumb gray and r…
i loved you. i think it’s importan… i stored love for you in places i… i loved you in states of yours tha… i loved you. when you screamed so loud that the…
you go to touch me, and i bite your soft, warm fingers… then when you’ve left, i cry because i’m cold.
is it too late to admit i loved yo… even through it all? summers over, but i still feel it on my skin.
i love breaking your heart. call me a sadist, i don’t particul… i’ll reel you back in like a trout…
trying not to cry in the holiday i… my mama said something mean again
i miss being a kid when the saddes…
i’m not entirely sure i’m alive, s… saying that makes me seem crazy or… maybe i am, maybe it matters, but i don’t really think it does. you have your hands on my thigh.
he kissed along my scars and asked… i tangled my fingers in his hair a…
i’m dissecting you with a scalpel… i’m slapping you on the rack, reac… pulling out your intestines and di… doesn’t feel so good, does it?
i’m tired of crying into my pages… with my mouth stuffed with blackbe… seeds spilling out and my tongue d… i want to lock myself up in the ba… to shatter the mirrors with shriek…
i’m building sentences like lego w… but they just aren’t clicking. i’m trying to find just one way, t… the mindfuck i’m going through. it’s not clicking in their brains,
sit across from me, with no space in between. chest again chest, and our legs folded awkwardly. wrap your arms around my neck,
i’m whispering “baby,” up to the n… relishing in the roll of the word… the hum of influence, consequence,… like a storm, like a burn, like an…