i flick the lighter on, on, on off. a useless fidget, one that turns my thumb gray and r…

i’m waiting for the good part, i’m praying real hard that it’s st…

i’ve got, “i miss you” carved over and over again on my sternum. skin raised and red, but it’ll dull down to a scar. just like the ones on your forearms that i saw when it was just you ...

i loved you. i think it’s importan… i stored love for you in places i… i loved you in states of yours tha… i loved you. when you screamed so loud that the…

sometimes i think, when i’m sitting here doing jacksh… that you are only here with me, sticking it out, cause you’re hoping i’ll be someon…

i don’t miss you as much as i thou… isn’t that terrible? aren’t i such… i told you, curling into myself, s… that i smell your clothes when i f… i refused to wash them or set them…

“do you still think i’m pretty?” i… mascara running down my face, lips…

i love breaking your heart. call me a sadist, i don’t particul… i’ll reel you back in like a trout…

blurred around the edges took a couple naps today. almost started a fight, then i didn’t and held someone ins… i feel lucid and fluid.

i’m sick of people telling me they… and then reach for the knife lodge… just to twist it. fuck you guys for that. fuck me for falling for it.

god lives in a church. so, i’ve been breaking their stain… trying to figure out which one he’…

i love you and isn’t that it? isn’t that a slur? to say i love you, when your father spilled that

like a knife to flesh. phantom pain. a faint scar, but it’s jagged. wishing you’d come back and try ag… so i could step right into the kni…

there’s something so forgiving in being angry on behalf of a chil… who no one was angry for.

please don’t leave me. you swing your legs, sitting on th… we used to climb it a lot after sc… are you saying you’d miss me? you… yes, fucking yes, i would.