(2012)
#Pain #Sadness #Tears
The blank page stares back at me Mocking me with his taunting glare… The hands on the clock ticking - t… chanting, “Failure, failure, failu… My mind is frozen. I’m blank.
Looking in the window I’m frozen in place As I watch the scene inside I’m looking at the woman Who claims to be an outsider
Peering into the window The scene beyond the glass Brings tears to my eyes The pain burns in my throat As I hold back the sobs
I don’t know where to start Too much to say So much more to lose I know what I am risking But I don’t have a choice
I’m wide awake The night still young My mind refusing To take the chains off To let me escape
My ceiling is dreary The white paint Paled from the years Flaking and peeling I stare morbidly content
Unhappy thoughts Replace my good mood Sending my heart fluttering Angrily against my chest Demanding to prove their worth
An escape from the pain Someplace soft to fall When the world knocks me down And the ground is hard. Decorated by the hearts
Time ceases to exist Vanishing from my mind As my worries cry All the things I can’t control Throwing me back
Waking in a cold sweat Choking for breathe Scared to death The shadows prancing In the darkness
You hide behind your big smile But I know you wear a mask And I see the lies you hide I see the scarred fragile soul Cracking beneath the weight.
Disappointment is everywhere I lo… It is in the faces of those I adm… And shown in their actions I wish I could fix everything All the hurt feelings
A fluke encounter Letter after letter Turning me inside out Each new exchange Giving me
Starting Over There are no words The silence stretching between us As we struggle to breach the gap Our breathing labored
A little boy tugs at his mothers arm while she ignores him. Tears springing to his eyes he wonders why.