Joy, light, happy moments, big smiles, comforting arms,

Waking up in darkness, the moon shining through my window… With tear filled eyes I sit up and remember what I was dreaming. His smiling face shining.

center Love is a simple thing, but we complicate it. We muddy it up with doubt and fear… Doubt in ourselves.

Cousin. Brother. Best friend. All one person and now he’s dead.

center the tear stained faces staring up at dark ceilings contemplating life

Life is cruel, when it takes your loved ones. Life is cruel, when you can’t say goodbye. Life is cruel,

Don’t leave me brokenhearted. Don’t leave me in the dust. Don’t pretend you love me, if all you feel is lust. I’m scared you’ll walk away.

Exhausted, Drained, I have nothing left. No more strength to fight against… I’m sinking.

Lord, Things are unbearable. I have been shouting. I have been crying. Hoping you would listen.

“Can you breathe?” the air is asking, as smoke fills my lungs. I am crouched under a leaf, the tears streaming down my face

In my eyes I see us, standing side by side, nothing can come between us, no matter how hard people try. In some eyes they see him,

I walk around, feeling whispers. Avoiding the eyes that prosecute m… The stares. The glares.

Love life, but love death also. It isn’t the end, only a beginning that we don’t und…

center When I’m with you, I have no worries, but then I don’t see you, don’t talk talk to you,

I see your face. Lifeless and pale, resting on a pillow of white silk. I try to pretend you’re sleeping, but the tears in my eyes betray me…